so i am roughly giving u hmmm... 17 days for my bday! hahaha!

i always do this every year..hindi naman masama mangrap ah.. :D

1. gusto ko ng ipod.. haha! or kht mp3 lng..

2. new laptop... :D (asa....gusto ko pa kasi ung bongga eh!)
3. havaianas... hahaha... kaso pngit pa designs ngaun eh.. booo.

4. a boyfriend... haha! joke lng.. d naman hinihingi un... wish lng.

5. chow chow!!! omg.. aso.. khit anung aso... mahal ko n kayo!

6. stufftoy n baboy n malki! hahah! :D WEEE!

7. kht isng bulaklak lng okei na. okei n tlg!

8. mabuo ulit ung mga friends ko so i could celebrate my bday with them....

9. a car.... haha! d n tlga ako mkpganty ng 2 years naman... boooo.

10. most of all.. peace on earth... ska beach outing.



hahaha! sa mga natatamaan dyn.. pa fed ex nlng. hahaha! :D o kaya lbc.. okei lng un... address ko: lt 8 blk 3 villa estella subd. san andres, cainta, rizal.. ummm.. haha! joke.. kapal ng mukha eh.... hahahaha! joke lng... wish list lng naman... nangangarap lng... kaya nga wish... ay mali.. dream pla un... hahah! i kinda found it hard to think of this wish list... coz now i really dnt know what i want.... pilit lng ung mga iba dyn... haha! :D it just means that im contented... hahaa! very much... haha! :D

i cnt believe it...
well actually i do...
mgreremove ako ng ob...
well, its not that ummm... surprising..
considering nung finals ay nagkaron ako ng worst case of dysmenorrhea!!!

kaya medyo 30 minutes into the exam ay umalis nko... dhil, hindi ko sya kaya...

o well....
that's life...
dapt next year wala ng removals... i swear...

this is sooo depressing.

personality disorders...
that was our lesson in class awhile ago.... and it hit me... IT HIT ME BAD.

I HAVE OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER and slightly SCHIZOID.

and its just sad because my def mech is "DISSOCIATION OF EMOTIONS".

since i am unable to face something that bothers me emotionally... i resort to this obsessive compulsive disorder.... i tend to separate my feelings from my work... so that i could function better.... i resort to doing compulsive things to delay my facing of something.... something emotionally bothering...

and its true.. something is emotionally bothering me right now...
and now.... im trying to run away from it so that i could not hurt myself.....

i hate epi!!!!!

grbe... stat program just drove me crazy... shet tlga....
so gling akong sm kc ni stalk nmin ni nica at paul c isaac at mon....
cnmhn ko c mon mgpgwa ng computer nya....
so nkauwi nko ng mga 9:30 cguro?????

so i gt to work on our thesis agad.....
i was just supposed to switch one variable to another to get the correct statistical data, leche inabot ako ng 3 oras kkfigure out kung pno ko ggwin un!!!!

but then.. IM SOOOO GOOOD! hah! naayos ko sya... wala lng... ngrerejoice lng ako... kc msaya tlga!!!! :P buti nlng... muntik muntik nrin akong mg give up... shet...
binutingting ko lng ung ibng mga cmmnds nka alphabetical lng pla sya... grabeeee tlg!!! grrrrrrrr....

gfted nga cgro tlg ako sa statistics.... wahahahaa!!!

hindi n nmn ako mktulog!!!!

note to self: MUST not fall into temptation.... must not... must not! STOP urself.

so far... ive accomplished half of what im supposed to do.
and wait! there's mre... CRAP.

must finish:
1. commed revised data prsentation by tomorrow.
2. edit 5 surgery tranx.
3. make 5 commed tranx?!
4. study for exams for the next 3 weeks.
5. remember that i am a human being... still. not robot. HUMAN!
6. restrain from killin myself....

i only have to battle 3 more weeks.. sana mabuhay pko... :C ayokoooo ng gnitong klseng stress!!!!!!!!!! i am sooo gonna get whammered when all of this is done.

i really must not think about IT. im am now trading my happiness for a bit of sanity!!!!

psychotic disorders is driving me to be psychotic!!! its funny how we embody our lessons... now that's what you call application!

BEING TOP 16 IN CLASS IS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME MORE TAMAD....
NOT GOOOOD.

this has been a habit of kia and me every new year.... we answer this same survey.... and weve answered it for nearly... 3 years na... wooohooo.. traditions...

* kia... hinanap ko tlga to! in fairness to me... naaalala ko pa.. khit super trip trip lng to before...

the beginning of 2007...
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? NOOOOO!
How old were you? 20
What was your outlook on the world? i was a stupid pathetic person?!
How were you doing at school/your job? THEN? AHHH I WAS THE BOMBED IN THE LAST MONTHS OF 1ST YEAR MED...

What did you most look forward to? 2nD YEAR MED.. weird right?!
Did you make New Year's Resolutions? NO!

What was your biggest worry? FAILING ANY CLASS... in 2nd year..?
Who was your best friend? I THINK... I STILL SAW GERRY THEN AS MY BESTFRIEND.
What did you do with your spare time? I DIDNT GO TO SCHOOL THAT MUCH.. SO I PROBABLY SLEPT... AND CRIED.. AND BE PITIFUL.. ewww.

What did you do for fun? GALA.. GUMALA NG GUMALA.


In the middle of 2007--
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? NOPE...
Had your outlook on the world changed? YEP! THE WORLD IS INDEED A BETTER PLACE IF U FORGOT ABOUT UR STUPID PROBLEMS AND TRY TOIVE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME...
What did you spend your summer doing? COR CHRISTI IMMERSIONS... HONGKONG... BEACH AT MY BIRTHDAY.. HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS..

Did you get tan? O YEAH...
Who'd you hang out with, mainly? my MED FRIENDS.. MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS...

Did you go visit anywhere? Yep.HONGKONG.. PAMPANGA.. CAVITE
What was your biggest worry? HOW ID HANDLE 2ND YEAR MED
What was the most fun event that happened? COR CHRISTI IMMERSION! MY BDAY AT CAVITE!


And as the year drawns to an end...
Still got a significant other? NOPE... NEVER HAD THOUGH.. WELL ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SIGNIFICANT TO ME... :)

How old are you? 21
What major changes have happened since the year began? I REALIZED THAT HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE.. MOVING ON IS POSSIBLE AND THAT LIFE IS TOO DAMN PRECIOUS TO BE WASTED ON WHAT IFS AND MAYBES.... LETTING GO IS NOT HARD TO ACHIEVE ONCE YOU LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF..

Is your life any different from when it started this year? YEP! ITS MUCH MORE SIMPLER.. HAPPIER ( DEFINITELY! ), QUITER AND JUST PLAIN UNCOMPLICATED.... ITS PRACTICALLY BLISSFUL...
What thing that happened stands out in your mind? COR CHRISTI IMMERSIONS... HAVING A BRIEF GLIMPSE ON THE LIFE IM ABOUT TO EMBARK ON IS A REFRESHING THOUGHT AND IT JUST MADE ME REALIZE THAT I CHOSE THE RIGHT PATH... I AM MEANT TO BE HERE.. ERGO... I HAVE TO PROVE IT... ALSO.. HAVING YOUR HEART BROKEN INTO A GAZILLION LITTLE PIECES ISNT SO BAD... BESIDES.. HATING SOMEONE DOESNT REALLY GO ANYWHERE.... SO JUST LEARN TO LET GO... AND BE HAPPY ON UR OWN...

How have you changed? YES! I AM NOW BLISSFULLY IGNORANT... I THINK IM NOW QUITE INSENSITIVE TO OTHER'S FEELINGS OR PROBABLY MY OWN... IVE BECOME DENSE TO FURTHER PROTECT ME FROM WHATEVER... BUT IM MORE DETERMINED AND FOCUSED RIGHT NOW... :p

What was the most embarrassing moment? I HVE NO IDEA REALLY.

When was your lowest point? PROBABLY AN EVENT THAT WOULD LEAD ME TO WALK FROM MARIKINA TO MY HOUSE IN CAINTA.. WHICH TOOK ME ATMOST 5 MONTHS TO CRY ABOUT OUT OF ANGER... BUT IM NOT ANGRY ANYMORE.... THAT WAS JUST NOT FAIR...

Are you happy with how the year went? WELL... THE FIRST PART WAS KIND OF DOWNWARD SPIRAL BUT I EVENTUALLY LEARNED TO BE HAPPY IN THE MIDDLE PART... :)

what thing would you change if you could? NOTHING REALLY.. IM PERFECTLY CONTENTED RIGHT NOW.. I DONT NEED ANYONE DISTURBING MY PEACE IN THIS WORLD... I AM IN EQUILIBRIUM WITH THE UNIVERSE RIGHT NOW.. ANYONE WHO DARES DEFY THIS PEACE SHALL FACE THE WRATH OF THE UNVERSE.. JUST KIDDIN!

For 2008...
What do you plan to not do that you did this year? CRAM?!
Do you think it'll be better than this year? I HAVE A FEELING IT WILL... WELL I DO HOPE FOR THE BEST...

Do you think it'll be WORSE than this year? NOPE... IT WILL BE FANTABULOUS!
What do you plan to do next year? CONTINUE WITH MY LIFE... FIND ITS PURPOSE... INSTILL MORE POSTIVE VALUES ON MY SELF...
What are your pre-New Year's resolutions? DEFINTELY LOSE WEIGHT..

Who are you spending New Year's Eve with? MY MOTHER... THEN ID BE WITH MY FRIENDS TILL DAW!

What one thing would you like to say as the year is almost done? LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL... AND I WOULDNT WASTE A SECOND OF IT PINING OVER SENSELESS THINGS! :p BRING IT ON! :p 2008 WILL DEFINITELY BE BETTER...



wooohooo! 2008 na!!! i think it is but proper to write this post at this very moment... though i have no time really to recall every little detail that i have gathered in this past year.. ill forever keep it in my heart.... :D i do hope this year would be for the best.... and that ill be able to find happiness and joy in my heart......

im wishing you all a happy new year.. let us make our lives a bit mre meaningful by following our heart and our dreams... :D

im gonna try not to get whammered tomorrow.... i promise to be in control of myself... BOW. hehehe! :P

yesterday.. i had a christmas reunion with my high school friends... :P

SHET cherry.. nmiss kita.. :P

grbe.. i realized n 3 taon nrin pla kmi hindi nagkikita... hehe! grbe...
alot has changed.. ang daming chismis... kung anu anu n nangyri..
but were still the same paulinians...

its obvious weve grown alot and we had alot of fun....
:P

i missed u guys!!! :D

next yr ill super try to attend ulit! :P

thse are the times i wished that people would never chnge.. :P

finally.. after 3 months of grueling.. mind boggling.... exhausting 3 months....

CHRISTMAS BREAK NAAAAA!!!!!

yes... grbe.. khit pagod na pagod na.. :P carry parin! khit merong mga downfalls.. kaya parin! :P wheeeewww... i survived again! 3 months nlng.. at 3rd year na akoooo! :P i cant wait... :P okei.. since ako ay super busy or pagod or just plain sabog... here goes...

MONDAY
si kangaroo ( cha), koala ( reng), cutie racoon ( jaja) at ako ( pretty panda!) ay ng trip at pumunta kming walter pra kumain at mag xmas shopping.. huweee! :P hehehe! :P ayowwwn o. :P tpos isaw naman sa hapon.. grbeng food trip na ito!!! :P

TUESDAY
ako ay hindi pumasok buong araw.. pero.. asa nicasia ako ng gabi... bkit nga ba sisi? hahaha! wala lng din.... tambay mode... :D miss ko si sisi eh. :D ahhh kasi naisip nmin wala n pla kming gingawa.. at nabore kmi ng todo.. so ako, karlo, yuki at sisi ay ng ice cream nlng sa ministop at n daldalan ng 2 oras! wweeee!!1

WEDNESDAY
bibingka day!!! :D since kmi ay ngccrave ni mon ng bibingka.... niyaya nmin si isaac n dapat ang wednesday ay bibingka day.. :P so kasama nmin bumili sina nix at paul ng bibingka at puto bumbong!!! yummy!!! :D WEEEE! :D sobrang takaw at ang sarap tlg... :D pero naumay kmi sa isang bibingka... eeeehhh... hehe! tmbay n nmn kei sisi buddy! :D

THURSDAY
may exam kmi sa ethics knabukasn pero kamusta naman at gumagala kmi.. so matpos nming mag simba ni mon... mineet ko namn sina reng at sisi sa dorm nila madi.. at shet.. gusto ko ng lumipat sa nicasia... suuuupppppeeerrr.. GRRR. anyways.. ayown... :D tambay hnggng 2 am... hahaha! tawa lng kmi ng tawa... la na kmi pinatunguhan! hahaha! pero masaya naman... :D

FRIDAY
last day!!! WOOHOOOO!!! bumisita si raphy!!! :P we missed u sooo much! mwah mah! :P
so aun.. ng shopping muna kmi ni sisi... tpos punta SM... nkita nmin don sina nic at pul... at nghanap ng mga toys... hehe! :P tpos ng txt si mon.. sama daw sya smin.. :D so aun... :P ikot ikot.. at si mon ay napakahyper... grbe ... n drain ang energy namin ni sisi! wahahha! :D tpos aun.. tmby kay tatay isaac... :P hehehe.. laro ng sponge bob! :P at natuwa din mag chuzzle!!! hahahha! weird.... kung keln pataps na.. saka nabubuo ang barkada... :D hehehehe! :P WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

so aun ang nangyri ngaung linggo.. masaya... makulit! :P pero ang finale... WALANG PASOK!!! yessss. :D WAGI ang lola mo. :D

guys.. sa uulitin ulit ah.... mamimiss ko kayo sa xmas break.. :D
mwaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh! :D

syet sana magkatotoo ung wish ko.. *wink wink *

kiapots... :D hehehe! :P mishu!

wala na akong panahong mag blog kasi madming kelngn gawin.
sino ba kasi ng imbento ng jft... KILL....
grbe... slave driver....
:(

well.. atleast its now finished.. though we didnt win.. i dnt care.. im just glad its over.

" haha! i like you... we have a connection na.. u seem to know exactly what i want..."
freak... hahaha! its nice... level up.. haha! :P ur soooo awesome! :O pun INTENDED. hahah!!! still way freaky.

just finished watching how i met ur mother.... its LEGENDARY!!! wait for it!!! :P ahahhaha! :P awesome... this show is freaking AWESOME....

kia, i am chrstina yang and ur meredith.... i want my burke.. but well look for ur mcdreamy in a while... :P hahahah! we have weird conversations... seriously. the lizards sends their LOVE.

you... im confused.. jst tell the truth.. get it over with.. and well all be happy...

3rd wheel mode talk.... everyone hates it... so why does it exist?!?! because insensitive people make them exist.... GRRR. breathe.

When all is said and done,
there are only 5 persons in our lives in the course of love:

1. The one with whom we first fell in love.
i can still remember my nene days... hahaha.. how could i forget... :P

2. The one who was so perfect but got away.
urgh... yes... ive been regretting that since i let you go... if only u really knew...

3. The one who hurt you the most that you could barely take the pain.
and thn again... this one i would just like to forget..

4. The one you loved, but only treated you as a friend.
awkei.. so big ouch... but then again, if that didnt happen... i wouldnt be stronger.

AND

5. The one you would walk down the aisle and exchange vows with.
so this leaves me just one.... just one person who i can share my forever with....please, wag ka muna dadating.. i might just ruin it again.... :) awwwwww...

NU ROCK AWARDs 07...

it rocks!!! woohooo! :P

hahaa... after making tmbay till the wee hours of the morning... as in like mga 5 am.. after them grilling me for like.... i dont know hours.... after getting a headache from too much of that.... haha.. < i am the divert queen! > kala nio! :P haahhaha! sabay sabay kming nagising! :P hahaha! :P 11 something...

sinundo kmi ni tatay ng mga 1:30.. tpos kmi ay ng MOAAAA! wooohooo! icebergs! fun fun fun! :P i like... grbe... ng adik n nmn ako sa fries nila!!NOOOOO! :P hahaha! :P grbe busog.. so aun.. off we go to the WTC... < pul.. sorry.. naiwan ko ang ticket mo!!1 sorry tlga! :c waaaahhh!!!>

NU!!! rock awards!!!

grbe... kelngn may ng mamake out sa harap nmin noh?!?!
the crowd was rowdy in every sense of the world... as in!!!
it was really..
a MOSH PIT! < true blue rock concerts should always have this... i assume.>

grbe... i never really knew wat band performance i liked actually... ahhaa! sugarfree... okei... ska bamboo...duh... syng walng silent sanctuary.. nOOOO !

anyway... the concert was really really fun!!! as in!!! :P

at ako lng ang nakagmit ng akong red horse beer pass.. whch... d ko naman tlga nainom dhil pngit n lasa.. EWWW. hahaha! :P

pero grbe... saya adrenaline rush! :) ahhaa!

i love u ira cruz!!!! :P

tay.. no. u cant refuse. i beg to disagree. :P hahaha! < evilness laugh! >

grbe.. after abstaining from junk food for like 2 weeks..
ung nanay ko.. bnilhan nmn ako ng aking favorite n lays!
OH nO!
kunsintidor ba... hahaha!

its weird i know...

KIA and JAM! had uber fun with u sa ating jologs movie! :P

" she had me and my worst.. you had me at my best.. but you chose to break MY heart... "

wahaha!

" ang ganda ng view noh!? "

hahahah! :P

out of the blue blogs...

**** its weird hw we always seem to report things to each other.. where we are.. wat were doing...before we go to sleep... what weve studied... how were feeling.... its just weird...we seem to take pleasure in making each other our own personal secretary... haha! :P anyhow.... its nice to know that ur always a text away whenevr i have mind boggling questions.... and u know too where u can feed ur ego... haha! :P were like superfriends personified. :P its nice. :)its just like pre school... haha! :P

*** ur bribing me now? hahahah! ;P so u think that this will all go away with just that.. hahah! :P well.. ur happy... mine was just a pthetic state of loneliness... so off u to go ur happy ending.. :P whaha! :P im okei now... i just realized by my pathetic self that my other friends loves me more this way... ahhaha! :P

bkit naman kasi nkikialam pko sa buhay ng mga kaibgan ko...
pakialm ko ba dba kung umalis silang dalwa n hindi ako sinasama.. anu nga naman ung magtxt lng kung gsto ko diba? e kung sa gsto nilng 2 lng sila dba.... anung mggwa ko..
alnganamng pagpilitan ko sarili ko sa knila... d ngmukha lng akong tnga...

e anu nga rin naman kung kht magkakasama kming 3 silang 2 lng ngkakaintndhan....
anu nga rin naman kung habng ngllakd kming 3 ay naiiwan lng ako sa likod at nakatunganga magisa...
anu rin naman kung pra lng akong kaladkaring aso ng buntot ng buntot sa knila...

anu nga naman dba?
MASAYA naman sila eh.

dati naman kasi hindi gnon eh.
dati sama sama lng kming 3.
ewan ko ba. bahala na.

MASAYA naman sila.

ang ironic noh...
saka ako nagiging malungkot pag may kasama akong iba.
maging LONER nlnga kaya ako pra tpos na.

grabe.. mas nakakalungkot nga ata ung alam mong may kasama ka pero feeling ko nagiisa ka lng sa mundo.... ayun ata ung pinakamlungkot ever.

hindi bali.. masaya naman sila eh.

un nlng konswelo ko... since kaibgan ko naman sila.. gusto ko sila mging MASAYA.

MASAYA nga naman cguro sila.

ok na un.

only child naman ako. SANAY NAMAN AKONG MAGISA.

I rest in the sea of familiar faces….
Faces ive known but seem so distant to me…
I see you from a distance..
But my heart refuses to skip a beat…

I am but a sole traveler…
In this plain engulfed by confusion and strife…
With no one as my shield…
With no one as my light…

I glance at the horizon…
Filled with what ifs and maybes….
Forcing myself to slowly feel….
Yet thwarting the urge to fully see…

I live in a cloak of bitterness…
Masking what i really feel…
Hiding all my inhibitions…
Pretending to feel whats not real…

I walk around in solitude….
Feeling alone despite everyone around me…
I can subtlely sense your presence…
As I detach myself from this reality….

I walk alone in this sea of familiar faces..
Yearning to soar and be free…
But I never knew that your presence…
Would be the thing that would make me more lonely…

sometimes i wonder why im so guarded....
why i dont want anyone to be close to me... to have that deep connection with someone...
it works for me at times because i become oblivious to the truth...
i gain the inability to see and state the obvious...

im in denial... i live in a cloak of bitterness...
i refuse to be close because in reality i dont want to experience "that" again...
i refuse to let others know me...
they may think they know me.. but in reality.... no one does...
i cn count people who may know me in all my entirety...

i am guarded... i am masked...
i have this inability to connect with people...
and sometimes... its okei...
but sometimes... i just wish...
maybe... if then..will i let down my brickwall...
and let you in...?

i am soooo out of place.. like an anomaly...
and i feel like a third wheel..
and it does not feel good being left behind...

i feel alone despite everyone around me...
i never knew that in ur presence i would feel this lonely...

give me a reason why i should wake up each morning....
i need a reason... a cause...
to feel the morning sunshine bathe me...
to wake my heart of this deep slumber...
reason abandons me...
hope has forsaken me....
i am but a drifter in this sea of endless dreams...
if only lucid dreams could engulf me in entirety...
sleep seems a sweet escape from the turmoils of my world...
this world or the next...
i have no reason...
no lost cause to fight...
no sunlight to free me of my darkness...
i need a reason... a cause...

many mornings have come and go...
mornings of senseless, useless and seemingly worthless being...
give me a reason...
give me a reason why...
give me a reason to...

it just... passes by...
like the wind which leaves me cold and alone...
why wake up... when i have all the time in my world...
a world of solitude and nothingness...

i need a reason...
give me a reason...
wake me up...
give me a reason to wake up...
and see that each morning holds something bright for me...

Vertical Horizon - Im Still Here Lyrics

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

I'm still here

You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place

But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

(chorus)

Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away

Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

(chorus)

The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here

I'm still here

dahil ayaw ni Neka na kumain sa dorm....
we got dismissed early so halfday kmi.. :P
so ayun ngkayayaan kumain...
ang unang plano nmin.. dpt s fiats... so pinuntahan nmin si tatay.. :D

sge.. game daw sya... bglang ngyaya ng tagaytay!!! wooohooo.. in full uniform pa ito!!!

itenerary 1:
MUSHROOM BURGER
sympre.. kain to the max.. :P foood trip na naman ito.. :P so ang saya saya.. kasi kwentuhan at asaran... ahah! :P sarap pa ng mushroom burger... paul.. ang takaw takaw moooo! GRRRR.. hahahaa! :P pero okei lng.. masaya kmi...

intenerary 2:
MY FAVOOORITE PLACE!!!
so... since asa tagaytay nrin nmn kmi.. niyaya ko nalng sila sa aking favorite place on earth... :P ang saya saya tlga!!! sympre tambay n nmn kmi doon.. at buti naman natuwa sila... kasi ang gnda daw ng place.. super fvorite place ko tlga un! :P so aun... kwentuhan about sa buhay buhay..... :P tambay... tpos site seeing.. tpos.. brutalan thoughts na naman.. ay nko guys.. kelngn makapunta tyo sa crater ng mt. taal bgo tyo mg graduate!!! :P its a must!!!

intenerary 3:
FLOOOWEEERRRSSS!
one of my most favorite things to do when i go to tagytay is to buy flowers.. and as usual.. aun n nmn ang aking favorite n geranium!!! hayyy... nice.. so si nica, inatake rin at nghanap ng blood red roses! hahha! umuulan n kmi ng flowers! :D sooo pretty tlga! :P

intenerary 4:
DE LASALLE, CANLUBANG!
so aun.. si tatay ngyaya.. trip nyng bisitahin ang knyng brother dearie....so.. off to lasalle canlubang we goooo! ang gnda ng schoool!!! CRAPPPP!!! shet. ang gnda tlgaaa.. ibng level!!! as in!!! :( so ayun.. ang kulit ng kapatid ni isaac... di tlgang halata n mgkapatid sila!

so aun.. kmiy umuwi... at...nung pauwi.. lo and behold! mei fooooog!!!! gndaA!

ng movie marathon kei tatay!!!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!
BEllisima!

sheet.. sad ung movie pero maganda! :O

sayng tlga wala akong camera pra idocument ang araw n ito! :( next time tlga kelngn meron na!!! 1-7 kmi asa may tagaytay! hayyyy..

this day was LEGENDARY...... sana maulit ulit!. tnx guys. mwaaah!

like i told ely... "it all up to him.."
and he said... im right...im precisely right....
so.. to sum up what ive been feeling for nearly 3 stupid years....

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.*
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i found this song somewhere..
it reminded me of something....
o well... :$


I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet
I thought my problems would just dissipate
And all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watched my bad habits get flushed away
I thought that that would keep my head on straight
And all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true
I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit, you

I thought that if I didn’t go and play
The sadness would get bored and go away
I thought that if I didn’t go astray
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true
I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit, you

I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low
I thought if only I could try and change
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But it’s true
I’m still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit, you

I must quit, I must quit, you